Life
is interesting. We meet such a wide variety of people. To express the thoughts
in my head right now, my vocabulary will probably fail because I have seen so
exclusively immersed in one field these past years. I look at all
the people I’ve met. Some have professed to care. Others have professed to
love. Others have attempted to convince me that they are true and what we have
is real. And in all the people I’ve met, I realize those that have truly cared
and loved, those with whom I have real relationships have not had to profess
these to me. In fact, it was a simple click. There is a saying that goes it
takes a day to love someone and a lifetime to forget them. There is truth in
this statement.
Why
do I care whether people who say they care don’t really care you must say? Why
does it matter to me since I know that they are false? Why you ask me? I care
not because I desire for them to express their honest feelings, but because I
wonder at the lengths they must go to convince me otherwise. At the end of the day, most of us come to
realize that what really matters is what is real and what is real is what is
truthful and honest. I am not saying you cannot fool yourself into believing
that a shallow relationship has depth. Of course you can. We do it all the
time. It comes from our desire to be oblivious to that which would cause us
pain. But I tackle rough spots head on. That way I can cruise along the rest of
the way instead of closing my eyes to the filth, only to have the stench
stifling my breathing on the whole walk.
Why
is it so difficult for people to be honest? We are scared, afraid of rejection,
or perhaps simply do not want to. Truth be told, honest people tend to be
honest with those they care for. The whole story about lying to protect the
feelings of the person you care about is nonsense, nonexistent – a lie to yourself!
And most of us know this. We know that our true reason for not “fessing” up to
those close to us is because we fear the ramifications of our confessions on
that relationship which we value. We fear how the other’s perception of us will
change, how they will reject us in some way. Because we had built that
relationship on feelings – either old or recent – we fear the rejection of
those feelings once the other becomes aware of our true self.
Moral
of today’s blog: we lie to ourself and others because we fear, not because we
care. What will you allow to rule your actions and speech: fear or honesty?
Don’t kid yourself: honesty is a rare rare find indeed these days. But it is
not altogether gone. And we must all start somewhere. You determine your
happiness. Start by choosing a determining factor that won’t crumble in your
face.
Thought
girl signing off ~
3.15.09
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